2014/04/26

Favorite Disney songs

Disney stories are obvious and boring after all though they offer extravagant, amusing scenes. So I don't like them with a few exceptions.

1. Tale As Old As Time (From Beauty and the Beast)
The story is basically a cliche, but what is timeless is you have to look inside the person, not the appearance. Belle feels that she doesn't fit in the village. There's no one she can really talk to. Instead, she finds pleasure in the imaginative world of books. I'm well aware of this feeling.





 


I hate the docile, dependent female image that Disney princesses instil. I deliberately despise the associated color pink. Go, The Paper Bag Princess!


2. Can You Feel the Love Tonight? (From The Lion King)
Simba becomes a real king by earning his throne after an ordeal. When Simba was a young cub, King Mufasa gave his son a tour of the land, teaching him the responsibilities of a king and the circle of life. The best scene!










 

2014/04/18

Poetry (Pablo Neruda)

I've long thought that poetry isn't my thing. They haven't been the things I appreciate. They have been what I have to analyze and decode. Bad consequences I get from school and exams. I should have been free from the old ideas. I didn't have to follow critics' opinions; it's OK to put my own interpretation. A good poem for others isn't necessarily acceptable to me. 


And it was at that age... poetry arrived
in search of me. I don't know, I don't know where
it came from, from winter or a river.
I don't know how or when,
no, they were not voices, they were not
words, nor silence,
but from a street I was summoned,
from the branches of night,
abruptly from the others,
among violent fires
or returning alone,
there I was without a face

and it touched me.


I did not know what to say, my mouth

had no way
with names
my eyes were blind,
and something started in my soul,
fever or forgotten wings,
and I made my own way,
deciphering
that fire
and I wrote the first faint line,
faint, without substance, pure
nonsense,
pure wisdom
of

someone who knows nothing,

and suddenly I saw
the heavens
unfastened
and open,
planets,
palpitating plantations,
shadow perforated,
riddled
with arrows, fire and flowers,
the winding night, the universe.

And I, infinitesimal being,

drunk with the great starry
void,
likeness, image of
mystery,
I felt myself a pure part
of the abyss,
I wheeled with the stars,
my heart broke free on the open sky.




2014/04/13

Library scenes

I love libraries. Time is all mine here. I'm in a world apart from the ordinary hustle and bustle. I like the silent, relaxing ambience. My favorite place is usually next to the the windows through which light gets in. I find the muted atmosphere mystical. Something mysterious is likely to take place at any corner of  the endless arrays of stories and knowledge.

1. Love Letter
I like the scene in which the boy is reading a book behind a billowing curtain in the breeze. This seems as if it foreshadows his premature death.
The boy and the girl have one thing in common: the exactly same name. Other students make jokes about them and thus the girl feels embarrassed. The boy checks out lots of hard books that nobody seems to read. The boy's name is written on the borrower's card of those books. It turns out that the name is actually the boy's attention to the girl. How innocent of them!


2. Sungkyunkwan Scandal
Seonjoon and Yoonhee do research together and build up deep trust in each other. The two promising scholars often meet in the library and exchange their opinions. They're concerned about what it is like to live well, and try to practice what they've learned to eradicate societal corruption.























3. It Started with a Kiss
Xiang Qin tags along behind Zhi Shu wherever he goes. Even to the library which is the last place people find her. Zhi Shu doesn't shun her. He enjoys her attention and deliberately controls the physical distance between them. They seem to play a funny hide and seek.

2014/04/12

Evocative music

Again the weather on weekend is disagreeable. My psychological mood is pretty much affected by bright sunshine or gloomy clouds. I need music. To soothe myself.
Songs are evocative of memories. Things eventually end up in good old days though they were either pleasant or bitter back then.
Life and landscape in LA were impeccable. Every single day was perfect. I'll never forget those days. Colorful bougainvillea and the blue sky with no cloud. It was like a sweet dream. The city itself is not as fascinating as NY, though. Horizontal LA and Vertical NY. The museums, the Met steps, and the park. I hate cold weather, but I can endure the chill if it's in NY. I wish I could see the green meadow and the festivity of NY in Spring and Summer.
Music makes me feel better on a gray day like this. I'm fond of music with metronome 100. I like it when my heart palpitates in response to the pulsing drumbeat. The smashing sound has to do with something primordial and thus it's thrilling.

















2014/03/15

Pictures of Hollis Woods

      

It's nothing but a kid book. It's boring because the story is predictable. However, there is an inspirational part of the story that I realized during the book club discussion.
Sometimes what you see is so deep in your head you're not even sure of what you're seeing. But when it's down there on paper, and you look at it, really look, you'll see the way things are. 
Look at a picture one way and you'll see one thing. Look again and you might see something else. 

You see the same thing differently before and after you're in a particular situation. For example, songs are just songs. But the lyrics sound different when you break up with a boy/girlfriend. They sing your story.

Hollis Woods is the place where babies are abandoned. Hollis has been in many foster homes and what she really wishes is a family. But Hollis thinks she is a mountain of trouble and thus she doesn't deserve a family. After a car accident, she declines the warm offer to live together with the Regans though she's desperately in need of parents and a brother. Later she catches different things from a picture she drew. The message has always been there, but she didn't recognize it. Now she wants to get back together with the Regans.

Everyone has the same experience; you've looked at a painting and seen one thing, only to look again later and discover something different.










When I first looked at the calligraphy painting in my teens, it was just another masterpiece of Joseon Dynasty. When I looked again in my mid twenties, I could understand what the artist truly wanted to render through the desolate landscape.
I was struggling to build good relationships with people. People  that I had thought were trustworthy turned out to be unreliable. I was lost and confused.
The artist lost his enormous power and was banished in a remote island. Nobody came to see him but one follower. He realized who was a true friend or a fair-weather friend, and then represented the ideas with pine trees. Pines are evergreen and never change colors even when it's cold.




To Kill a Mocking Bird



The story is described by a little girl named Scout. Her father is an indefatigable defender of human rights and takes humanitarian efforts for innocent people like Tom Robinson and Boo Radley. She's well brought up with her father's educational remarks and lessons from an array of incidents that occurred in the neighborhood.

This is the best book I've ever read. I'm really fond of the main character, Atticus. Basically Atticus is humble and unprejudiced. He doesn't boast of his achievements (i.e. shooting skills). He is kind to unprivileged people including blacks and supports them wholeheartedly. More important, I like him as a good person and especially as an excellent father figure/educator.
Atticus never blames or looks down on the teacher who doesn't allow Scout to read at home. He suggests an alternative and prevents his daughter from thinking that school is a weird and unreliable place. Also he's kind enough to have Jem read stories to an elderly cranky lady until the day she dies. He knows that she has different views about things, but he wants his son to see what real courage is.
You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view. Most people are (real nice), Scout, when you finally see them. 
Atticus says in the trial that all men are not created equal in the sense some people would have us believe. Some people are smarter than others, some people have more opportunity because they're born with it. But he then says that it is a court that makes a pauper the equal of a Rockefeller or the stupid man the equal of an Einstein. Atticus knows the reality and what ordinary people normally think of. Nevertheless, he strives hard to persuade people, having a firm faith in man.
Atticus says if he doesn't defend Tom Robinson, he can't hold up his head in town. Most folks are entitled to full respect for their opinions. But before I can live with other folks I've got to live with myself. The one thing that doesn't abide by majority rule is a person's conscience. He doesn't want to let his kids down when they're grown and look back on the case.

Here is an insightful quote from the book. It's not necessary to tell all you know... folks don't like to have somebody around knowing more than they do. It aggravates them. You're not gonna change any of them by talking right, they've got to want to learn themselves, and when they don't want to learn there's nothing you can do but keep your mouth shut or talk their language. 
I had tried unsuccessfully to change my troubled students' attitude toward learning and life though they had their own pace and timing. I had to admit that I was not the person who was in their critical moment. Instead I'm happy and content if I can have a good influence on a handful of students a year.

The older I grow, the more content  I am with what I have. I used to want more, want better. I'm thankful for who I am and what I have. I've become optimistic about my life and I'll try hard to be a better person to understand people around me. I wasn't born as a suppressed slave in the feudal system. I'm not an uneducated woman who is influenced by extreme religious fundamentalists. I'm not surrounded by racial bigots. (There but for the grace of God go I.)

2013/10/22

Hiking on the Alps

Switzerland was just on the itinerary. It's situated on the way from Austria. I was never fascinated by anything Swiss. Even the Alps didn't attract me. Until I went on a hike to the lakes. 
I was at 3100.82m above sea level. Close to the Matterhorn in the Alps. It was well worth of skipping breakfast. I had thought nothing would take my breath away other than aurora. (I haven't seen it, though. I will.) The hiking around the 5 lakes spread across the snow-covered mountain was overwhelming and unforgettable. Among the 5 lakes, Riffelsee was the best! So beautiful! I could get rid of all the stressful things that got me burned out at work. I initially planned to come down before breakfast, but I wanted to stay longer. I will be happy for a while with this memory.