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What a CF! The angles, colors, and music all together. Take a look at the rippling muscles! Everything is lifelike! Perfect realization of 3D! Looks as if I could feel the players' glistening beads of sweat and hear them panting. Literally can't take my eyes off from it just like the tag line.

So we're gearing up again for the World Cup. Meanwhile Brazilians are taking to the street today against spending huge amount of money on the soccer games rather than social projects. Riot police is firing tear gas to disperse thousands of protesters. I don't want to go to this extremely bipolarized country, let alone travel.

Koreans haven't gotten over the heartbreaking ferry accident and we don't know when we can get back to normal. Ironically, no as usual, politicians are busy preparing for the general election slated for early next month. Black comedy.

I have to write a eulogy for the deceased and their families, but I don't know where to start. It's an appalling catastrophe. I'm sick and tied of incompetence and irresponsibility of the ruling rightmost conservatives. Do we still have hope among the ageing electorate? Democracy is fading away. Hard to establish but very easy to collapse. I miss the late president.

At dawn

It was at summer's early dawn when I was in 8th grade. I felt full in my heart and I still vividly do. The world seemed to be all mine amid the tranquil atmosphere. There have been a couple more times since the first thrill. The rest was not as overwhelming as the first, though.

Staying up all night, looking at light appear in the sky, seeing the sun rise while the rest of the world still slept. An unforgettable moment for adolescent me.

This was forgotten in busy routine until I opened the introduction of The Alchemist. I had felt a special bond with the author. I've never thought that a foreigner living in other part of the globe would feel exactly the same. The book was highly acclaimed, but I honestly think the story is mediocre. Suffice it to say that the introductory pages say it all.

A shepherd boy who is in pursuit of treasure purportedly buried in a faraway place sets off for a journey. After a grueling odyssey, he finds the treasure in the place where he least expected: in his hometown.

We all need to be aware of our personal calling. What is a personal calling? It is God's blessing, it is the path that God chose for you here on Earth. Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following our legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our own dream. 

Why? 

There are four obstacles: 

1. We are told from childhood onward that everything we want to do is impossible. We grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear, and guilt. There comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But it's still there.

2. If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by abandoning everything in order to pursue our dream. We do not realize that love is just a further impetus, not something that will prevent us going forward. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey. 

3. Once we have accepted that love is a stimulus, we come up against the third obstacle: fear of the defeats we will meet on the path. We who fight for our dream suffer far more when it doesn't work out, because we cannot fall back on the old excuse: "Oh, well, I didn't really want it anyway." We do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey. Then, we warriors of light must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know that the Universe is conspiring in our favor, even though we may not understand how. 

I ask myself: are defeats necessary?
Well, necessary or not, they happen. When we first begin fighting for our dream, we have no experience and make many mistakes. The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.
So, why is it so impatient to live our personal calling if we are only going to suffer more than other people?
Because, once we have overcome the defeats--and we always do--we are filled by a greater sense of euphoria and confidence. In the silence of our hearts, we know that we are proving ourselves worthy of the miracle of life. Each day, each hour, is part of the good fight. We start to live with enthusiasm and pleasure. Intense, unexpected suffering passes more quickly than suffering that is apparently bearable; the latter goes on for years and, without our noticing, eats away at our soul, until, one day, we are no longer able to free ourselves from the bitterness and it stays with us for the rest of our lives.
Having disinterred our dream, having used the power of love to nurture it and spent many years living with the scars, we suddenly notice that what we always wanted is there, waiting for us, perhaps the very next day. 

4. Then comes the fourth obstacle: the fear of realizing the dream for which we fought all our lives.    

Oscar Wilde said: "Each man kills the thing he loves." And it's true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far. I have known a lot of people who, when their personal calling was within their grasp, went on to commit a series of stupid mistakes and never reached their goal--when it as only a step away.

This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a kind of saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here.  

I believe the writer's message is synonymous with 盡人事待天命.

Sow a thought, and you reap an act; 생각을 바꾸면 행동이 바뀌고
Sow an act, and you reap a habit;    행동을 바꾸면 습관이 바뀌고
Sow a habit, and you reap a character;   습관을 바꾸면 성격이 바뀌고
Sow a character, and you reap a destiny.  성격을 바꾸면 운명이 바뀐다.
                                                                by Samuel Smiles